Not me? What am I feeling?

    For the first time in a long time, I have a bit of anxiety.  I make no claims to be an expert in the world I am entering.  I do feel a powerful pull in this direction. Some may call it passion.  Eight months ago I began a journey to understand my faith.  I had all kinds of questions about God in my life.  I looked at the terrible things around the world and couldn't quantify it.  I began to realize, that I am not supposed to understand it.  Part of the mystery of the universe is that one singular being shouldn't be able to put it in a box.  At least that is what I started to feel. I made a decision to do what had the most positive effect in my life to that point.  I began to focus on others.  To make a long story short, bounty began to come my way in direct proportion to the commitment to help others.  I don't know how many people will come to my audition next week.  It could be five, it could be five hundred, I don't know what is going to happen.  For those that know me, I like a semblance of control and this time is the antithesis of that.  I do feel that faith and bounty will join me and lead me and all my friends and family on a wonderful path.