I have started this post a half dozen times. I have crumpled the paper (virtually) snd exclaimed at the words! It was not my real voice. It was a reaction. The title imparts how I was feeling when I began. We had just completed the show “Super Loser” to an impassioned and energetic audience on two wonderful evenings. I doubled my efforts from a marketing standpoint from our previously successful engagement. It was not a sell out. The math told me it was going to be a great turnout. I calculated the “I’m coming” in our CRM tool and was excited about what was going to happen. Most people did not come. After the show, I sequestered myself for at least a few weeks mentally. I did not binge “Greenleaf” which was my intent, I just floated in the world. When I encountered people that came to the show or heard of it, I heard beautiful inspirational comments. I couldn’t get past my own feelings even though I heard some of the wonderful words possible. I had come to a selfish realization. I felt hurt. Seconds after that, my maturing angel on my shoulder slapped me to attention. The show was not about me. I said that in the opening remark on show night, forget it and let my ego possess me.
There were awesome young people in the audience that had a chance to participate in the show. We had some amazing actors do some of the best work I have been ever privileged to witness. The volume of the audience was double our previous outing. They made the show come to life. My Son, who has been a light of my life for twenty years was part of this experience. The time he and I spent together through this was one of the most valuable opportunities to be together in my life. He inspired me, and many of cast mates. He helped me through it and love him so much. We also have an opportunity to take the show to another country in 2019. We worked with an amazing group of people at the Marietta’s New Theatre in the Square. This has been one of the successful things I have ever been a participant.
Blessings are abundant and cannot be quantified by the world’s measurements. The only measure you or I should acknowledge are the ones we want. Not only was the show more successful and impactful, but we have put the foundation in place that is linked to our ultimate purpose. My ultimate purpose is clear. I have so grateful to have been aligned with more real friends in the last couple of years than many decades before. What you who have blessed me by reading this post, is a renewed commitment. A commitment that was there but now has become hardened to diamond from pressure. That commitment to give us what I have been blessed with to responsibly help others with their purpose. Love is the real currency in this world!
Your friend - WW